Posted by Alexis at 12:43 PM, August 28, 2003
This whole wedding thing is
This whole wedding thing is rather scary..
There are all these things to do.. I am not sure what I should be doing..
I really miss my mum.. I'm sure this is the kind of thing I girl needs her mum to help with..
I need to organise a photographer and I haven't really been trying.
I think the main reason is that I won't have many family to take pictures of..
Phil has his parents, his brothers and both sets of grandparents..
I have my dad and my brother.. I don't actually have the greatest relationship with either of them..
They are just like any other family..
I get along really well with Phil's fam..
which is one of the reasons why he is so fabulous.. he likes to spend time with his relatives and they are all really supportive and friendly with each other (apart form one silly thing where some cousins weren't talking for about a year.. but I think that is all resolved).. its nice to have all these people around ...
I am really worried that I will get all upset that my mum and nana aren't there..
my mum passed away in 97 and my nan passed away this year - actually on the day of our engagement party. that was a huge success.. most of my relatives didn't come.. and well it wasn't the best of moods..
I really used to hate my nana.. she drove me crazy.. she was always telling me what to do and how to do it and it got to the point that I couldn't talk to her.. very sad.. i used to hang up on her.. it was all too much.. she was veyr unhappy about my mums death and always blaming people.. it was not a good time after my mums death.. the family was just horrible.. noone came to help.. Paul (her married my mum about 6 months before she died) supported us financiall yand eventually he had enough (mostly to do with my brother) and we sold the house and went our seperate ways..
well .. you wouldn't believe the way the relatives complained about that.. gee .. its not like they fed us, or housed us, or paid the bills, or even come to visit when my mum was sick, or came to help afterwares.. no.. accordig to the relo's and my nana Paul was evil.. oohh my gods he kept some of the furniture..i mean its not like it ws theirs anyway.. it was my mums..
well i think i will head off to the gym for a step class.. that will make me feel better.. jumping around is always fun..