Posted by Alexis at 03:33 PM, March 29, 2004
how will I cope
what am I giong to do with a small child completely dependant on me.. The hospital has classes that will go over things like feeding, bathing, sleeping etc but those aren't for months yet... I will have to get some more books so I can learn all about it.. Amanda Phil's cousin is doing a child care course.. she will be able to tell me what I need to know.. she has already learnt about things like bathing and how to lift properly.. so i might have to arrange some presonal lessons.. that could be fun.. I have also volunteered the baby to be in any case studies she has to do .. apparently she has to do things like track growth, changes etc.. so at the moment she is monitoring a cousin's friends baby.. just as well she know shome people with small kids.. other wise she might have to find strangers.. i can't imagine they would be interested..
i never really like new born babies.. they don't do much and often look creepy.. i hope i don't think my child looks creepy.. phil might freak out if i do.. in fact I might freak out if I do.. I remember going to visit a work friend in hospital a few days after her baby was born and she was so excited about it all.. she kept trying to make me hold the baby.. which I am always nervous about as I worry about not doing it right or dropping the baby or something.. such a worry.. when I am holding other people's children I always worry.. i have to be securely seated.. and sure of myself before I can take them.. perhaps this is becasue I have had little experience in small children.. I am sure I will improve..
it is going to be pretty exciting this year in Phil's family with births.. There are 3 sisters who are the heads of the family.. and each of them will be getting a new addition.. the other 2 will be grand children and Phil's will be a great grandchild.. the first.. oohh... so at least there will be other kids for them to grow up with.. and other parents we can ask questions and get advice from.. we are the last due date.. by about a month.. mucho excitement..