worries.

I am gettinga ll worried about my Dad.. he looks half dead.. he is so thin and barely eat and barely drinks and has troubles getting out of bed .. I dont know what I should be doing.. I need to help but I have no idea what to do.. It is making me rather stressed... we are off to visit with the dr again and perhaps have some more chts about what the hell is going on ..

sabine is also going to come visit to chat about moving to a nice place.. oohh dear..

tracking down dr's for answers

since my dad has been sick i have discovered the chaos that is the medical sector.. I am trying to find out what exactly is going on with my dad but just keep getting no where.. i have spoken to 3 different dr's so far and none of them can tell me what the long term expectations are.. I feel like this is a project got out of hand where people are all going about their tasks.. have no idea what the other people are doing and there is no one to take ownership of the project.. it is really annoying.. so far all the dr's i speak to are very nice and try to be helpful but they just don't know the details.. there is a missing link..

been thinking

I was just thinking and chatting to the people at work about the obstreticians etc.. anyway if on the day.. like when the baby is born I don't get my dr, and haev someone else.. will we get a big fat bill from them too? hhmm I hope not.. I will have to read up on the conditions.. we have a nice brochure somewhere..

at high school there was 2 girls that were born on the same day.. after a few years the mothers met and were chatting and it turned out that they had the same obstretition and because they girls were born near the same time only one of them got the dr and the other had a fill in.. amazing coincidences ...

got a bit lost last night

I was wonderig around for ages.. silly me.. i read carolyn's instructions and then I looked up the street directory and then I chose my path.. I got off the tram too far and went in the wrong direction.. i stopped to ask a nice looking man (I was in North Fitzroy) for directions.. he was out walking the baby in the pram.. and he said he new the street name but didn't know where it was.. so I was waiting at the traffic lights to cross over and head back in another direction, when he came back and said he just called his wife and she said its that way.. so wasn't that nice.. so i wondered off that way.. and still got some more lost.. so i started back in a different way and found some shops.. the nice girls in the nature shop (which smelled delcious with soaps and things) gave me directions.. apparently it was back the way I had just come.. so off i went again.. eventually I got there and its a really great place.. we were in the orange room..

I had spaghetti and meatballs for dinner same as Sue.. Sabine had a massive steak.. Carolyn had fried brie plus roasted brussel sprouts.. Jan had the beetroot curry with pilaf.. very nice.. Carolyn also had a dessert that had homemade (well it wasn't store bought, but they didn't advertise taht fact you could just tell.) marshmallow, honeycomb, strawberries and a chocolate pot.. I stole a piece of the honeycomb.. it was delicious..

Morning Tea is over

It just finished.. I didn't eat myself silly.. thank gods.. There is tonnes of food left over.. tonnes.. we will be eating all day.. i only had 2 peices of the brownies.. and it was yum! I used the lindt 85% cocoa chocolate.. so it is really chocolatey..

we didn't raise too much money about $70 for the cancer council biggest morning tea.. but I guess if lots of people all raised $70 it would add up to quite a bit of money..
and we had a nice itme and met some new people on the floor..

I love baking

Its such good fun..

then there is the problem of cleaning up afterwards.. but that dosen't matter too much.. I like to clean as I go.. then there are times where I can avoid the extra cleaning, by having 3 sets of measuring cups and 2 sets of measuring spoons, 5 spatulas and 3 cake testers.. I suppose the washing up is the same, but I don't have to wait for clean utensils nefore I can make more goodies..

I also need to expand on what I make.. I often make the same foods over and over.. I also make things that I don't like and get cranky when people won't eat them.. heeeeheeehee.. silly me..

I don't like making things that take too long to prepare.. like cookies that are cut.. all that rolling and cutting and re rolling again.. its so annoying.. also cleaning the cutters is annoying and you have to have a nice flat clean surface to roll onto... so much easier to make things in balls..

tired now..

I have found the sugar low.. after the sugar high... oohh well..

I was also thinking about making toffee's.. I will investigate.. i could make them on sticks.. so they would be like lollies.. oohh yum..

more ice cream

I had more ice cream and some vegemite toast and I am feeling all better..

la la la la la la la i might sing a nice song..

i also purchased a couple chocolate bars.. I really need to eat better..
I have snacks of cheese and nuts and juice and apples quite often, but they usually don't get a mention because they aren't considered exciting..

feeling cranky today

I have been all blah since I woke up this morning..

I did just eat a crunchie ice cream and are feeling a bit better..

There is lots going on at work.. there is lots going on at home.. I have an appointment with my dad's Dr to find out what is going on .. hopefully we can figure out what he needs.. I have no idea at the moment.. he has good and bad days..

ggrr.. so many things happening in my life at the moment.. I don't feel organised.. there is cleaning and baking and knitting and visiting and working and gardening and painting and playing and relaxing and feeling tired and sleeping...

I will be off to get some lunch.. perhaps something healthy.. perhaps not..

in a daze

I am in a daze this afternoon.. I have eaten some vegemite toast, some apple and blackcurrant juice , and a piece of cheese, ohh and 2 cups of water.. my belly is rather full.. I think bcasue its nice and warm it makes me sleepy..

I went to the gym and did some walking and some weights and some ball stuff and some stretches.. lovely..

oohh I just looked out the window and now I can see dark clouds.. it was just beautiful today.. there was a nice warm breeze and lovely sunshine.. so sad that I have to work and be inside .. soon that will all disappear.. I will be able to go for walks to the park and play in the garden when there is nice weather...

off to the gym for lunch

I went last week as well.. I have been feeling really slack and its good to use my muscles.. I am not doing anything extravagant.. Jan the trainer has got me on a nice schedule and we are doing basic light activities.. she is really good.. she has done a great deal of training and also has some pilates knowledge.. she is able to train that as well.. oohh also ball work.. so she always has somethign new and different to try when you go in.. it makes it much more un and if she has 10 different ways of doing the same action you don;t get bored and can find the one that best suits your needs..

knitting

did I mention I started a new knitting project over the weekend ??

well I did! I am making a poncho.. in lovely fluffy wool..
I think I am goingt o need some more wool.. I hope that is okay.. I don't want to go back and the dye lot that I want is gone.. that would be bad.. I might have to go shopping soon..

at the moment it is not much more than a neck warmer.. but I am progressing.. it is rather dense and will be so warm and delicious.. I can't wait to wear it..
I am also following a pattern.. very exciting. I have been doing riba nd stocking stich and incrementing all on round needles.. I did have to get Sabine to help join it together near the start, but all appears to be going well now..

baking on the weekend

I did some baking on the weekend..
I managed to make the honey joys - but I did use sultana flakes instead of corn flakes.. it is basically the same except it has sultanas.. I also burnt some choc chipc cookies... the oven is so crappy.. it was burning the bickies on the bottom but they were all soft and uncooked on top.. so they are a little black on the bottom.. then I made the triple choc brownies that Wendy is famous for.. but she won't be here yet so hopefully mine will be as good as hers..

it is very exciting baking.. i even cleaned up all the dishes after I finished with the baking.. what a good girl I am..

I might make some more things tonight.. hhmm what else was on the list..
may be I should try somethign new and exciting.. that might work..

unsuccessful shopping

I went on a journey at lunch today to lincraft.. I was planning on purchasing some delicious wool.. instead I wandered around the racks and looked at them all and patted theem and then spent ages looking through the pattern books and I didn't find things that I wanted to buy.. I found some nice wool, but they didn't have patterns for it.. I really want to try somethign that I can follow along.. I think I might like to make a poncho thing.. not too sure how to go about it.. oohh well.. i will have to check out patterns on the web or somthing.. I'm sure there are some out there..

morning tea

We are having Australia's Biggest Morning Tea next week.

I have been planning the things that I am going to bake..
on the list at moment is :
choc chip cookies
triple choc brownies
honey joys
orange maidera cake
fruit loaf
cup cakes

I might not be able to bake them all. also the morning tea is not till thursday and I want to make some things in advance.. brownies are good to make in advance, the only problem with that is I might eat them in advance.

been very busy

apparently Phil can tell when I have been busy at work because I don't update my blog..

well I have been very busy the last 2 days.. things are going a bit slower at the moment so I will be going home.. hoorah!

I son;t like to have lots of work.. especially when there is a dead line of a few days for somthign taht needs to have a week of testing.. makes me worry.. but I think I have done all the right stuff.. oohh I need to update some documentation ..

oohh still hungry...

I have just had 4 peieces of vegemite toast and an apple blackcurrant juice..

My tummy is ready to explode but I am still hungry.. I will have to rest up so that I can fit more in again soon.. hhmm perhaps if i wait for it all to fill up properly i might be feeling better .. too confusing..

perhaps I can just have a rest.. what a nice idea..

food.. ggrrr

I am all out of whack.. I came in early today for a change and now my stomach thinks its lunch time.. I started at 7am.. we had to get up very early.. oohh dear.. hopefully we can go home early as well.. nrmally I start between 9 - 9.30 so things are runnign behind..

do much excitement here.. there are problems and people are all over the place chatting about what it could be.,.. just as well my change went through smoothly.. there was one little problem with a missing file but I found it in another directory with capitals instead of lower case.. silly thing.. all fixed up now..

okay off to get snacks

curtains have been selected

I also forgot to mention the curtains...

well Saturday was rather eventful..
Sabine came over and we headed off to spotlight.. we went to the one closest to our place.. we looked at the fabrics for ages.. the plan was to get the same fabric that we have in out bedroom but in a differnet colour.. cos we really like the stripes and they are quite nice.. so anyway they didn't have nice other colours.. there was a different stripe in nice purple/green shades taht we liked (this is the fabric that I was going to purchase 2 weeks ago with Elissa, but I forgot to measure the window before we went) but we thought that the other one might be better.. so sabine remembered it being at another spotlight and we headed off there.. well we checked out taht place and they only had a small roll of what we wanted.. and well it wasn't enough and that was the last of it cos it was being run out.. and they didn' have the purple/green one that we liked.. so we decided that it was lunch time and we were getting cranky..

food..

journey back to our local area and investigate at dollar curtains.. a few choices there.. they also order what you want.. and the fabric that i liked was more htat 3 times the price of the other one.. so after spending ages there, we headed back to the first shop and purchased the purple/green.. and some lining.. oohh it was a hard day.. i was getting cranky and ggrr.. and annoyed but finally we got what I wanted.. and I really like it.. hoorah!

so we have fabric.. we can start to choose the paint colour.. oohh dear.. there are so many choices.. I had better get the room cleaned out first..

The big clean up

is still going...

I have managed to move the bookcase into the lounge.. so there is one less piece of furniture floating around.. I have taken out the phone table, but there is no where for it to go so it is hanging out in the kitchen at the moment.. hhmm...

I have a huge box full of goodies to get donated.. and a pile up to my knees of gardening and home magazines.. i am gong to donate them as well.. hopefully some kiddies will want to do cut outs or somthing...

next thing on the list is the table.. it needs to be sanded down and perhaps have all the little holes filled in.. at the moment it can give you splinters.. eewww..

the chest of drawers has a few tupperware things left inside.. i will put them into a nice box and drag them out again some day when I am the tupperware lady..

I also played with space bags some more and sucked up the pillows, doonas, stuffed animals and sleeping bags.. they have to go back up into the cupboard..

the picnic set and teh basket of phil's shoes are still loitering around.. hhmm.. i decided that the shoes could go into the chest at the end of our bed.. but that needs to get emptied of stuff first.. prehaps I should just drag all that out and put it into the junk room so taht the shoes can go away.. yes.,. i like that idea.. i will do that tonight..

hhmm.. i might need to check out all the junk in the laundry cupboard too.. oohh dear.. and also rummage through the kitchen cupboards .. we didn't clean out all the old when we got new wedding gifts.. so we have mountains of plates and glasses etc..

as you can tell I am a hoarder.. i love to keep everything.. I am starting to get better.. especially after that time we went and cleaned at my dads.. scary the amount of stuff that he had..

oohh well I might make a list of things to do.. I love lists.. I am much better at making the lists that doing the things on the list..

bulb planting

its almost time up for bulb planting.. and my bulbs were anxious.. some of them were starting to sprout.. so I had a mad rush over the weekend to get them into the ground and some into pots.... It was while I was cleaning out the junk room, I came across a bag of bulbs that Phil's Nana had given me.. They had just started to sprout and I had to go and plant them right away.. so then it got me thinking about the box of bulbs I had in the laundry.. and yep .. some of them were sprouting too.. so i put all the small ones (ranunculi's, anenomes, tritonia's, hyacinth's and fresia's) that I could into pots.. and then the others (iris's and daffodils and muscaris) into the garden.. it is very exciting.. many of the ones from last year are all sprouting about.. I still have some tulip's in the fridge getting nice and cold.. I had better plant them this weekend..

Oohh th egarden is going to look just delicious.. how exciting.. if i get some more potting mix I could put the tulips into that instead of the garden.. Phil is working on the yard at the mometnt and some of the bulbs from last year have been paved over of have big mounds of dirt and rubble on them.. bummer.. but its not a big deal.. I have hundreds of bulbs..

hungry so hungry so very very hungry

But I wont be eating worms.. eeww.. I might have to get some more snacks..

I only have freddo frogs and cheese bits .. hhmm I think I have some nuts.. yes I have walnuts.. oohh I will eat them..

tired

I am all tired.. I went out a lunch time and just wandered around.. I saw Elissa and Ellen .. chatted to them a bit.. I had some Mrs Fields cookies.. and I didn't do much else.. now I am all out of enthusiasm.. golly gee.. there is still 3 hours of the day to go.. I might have to do something else..

Knitting last night

It was on again last night.. all the excitement of knitting..

It was Elissa's first visit and she was a huge success.. she knitted about 5 rows.. Carolyn was showing her how to knit... Elissa is left handed and it was a bit confusing at the start.. but she is doing very well and even knows when she has made a mistake... which is great cos then she can get someone to fix it for her..

I managed to crochet 3 or 4 more squares last night.. I am getting tired of the crocheting .. I think I will have to stop soon and get a new task..

Carolyn is making arm warmers, with thumb holes.. she is very excited and had progressed quite far last night.. the most amazing part was taht she was following the pattern.. normally she makes adjustments for fun..

Happy Birthday to Ed

we even had some cake.. it was lovely.. chocolate.. yummo..

I didn't have anything to give him except a card.. and the card had a monkey on it.. hehehe..

present!

I got a present today.. Edward had been to Hong Kong and he got me a tissue box cover.. it is pretty cool.. so now I can buy no nae brand tissues and no one can tell.. Thanks Ed!.. it is pretty nice I am surprised.. I didn't think you could get nice tissue box covers.. i thought they were all revolting..

it is red and gold fabric with 2 different designs and it has little tassles with plastic jade coins that have writing on them.. apparently they say somethign about peace.. hoorah! oi will have peaceful tissues..

bed time

I am going to leave early.. I should have gone earlier than this.. but I was donig work and it was interesting and I got distracted.. silly me.. I am really hungry.. but I am having tummy troubles.. i am not sure what I should do.. perhaps I should have somethign healthy to eat.. perhaps some toast..

oohh I accidently pressed ESC and all my entry disappeared.. but then I did CTRL-Z and it came back.. oohh dear .. its definately time to go .. perhaps a nice nap will do..

not telling

I was out at lunch today and saw one of the girls from Uni... we chatted a bit and she asked what's been happening.. I didn't tell her about my pregnancy.. I didn't want to.. now I am all worried about it.. It's not like I am ashamed about it or anything.. I just didn't want to tell her.. Is there somethign strange about that? I suppose I don't have to tell people.. and you can't always tell by looking at me.. hhmm I just felt odd telling her that I was "in the family way" (as one of the work guys put it.. ) oohh well..

early riser

I had to come to work early today. I had a change starting at 7am.. ggrr.. I felt so sick this morning.. it was awful.. but I am all happy chappy now.. i have had a ribena and some water and rested a bit.. so all seems to be going nicely.. the change was succesful and every one is happy.. hoorah! so now its back to regular work.. and the best bit is I will get to go home early.. Phil won't be able to leave too early so I might go shopping.. hhmm perhaps.. or I could go and sit in the car and have a nap.. but i won't be going home on the train.. oohh I went home on the train Friday night.. and I was feeling so sick.. it started off okay, but I was ready to get off and vomit by the time I got to Box Hill.. so when I finally got home I went straight to bed.. it was 6pm.. therefore I did awake much earlier on saturday morning.. I won't be doing that again..

too many nerds

or perhaps it may have been the KFC I had for lunch.. I had a small chips and 2 chicken strips.. I was cranky at lunch and I couldn't decide on things to eat.. I walked around the QV food court 3 times.. I was good though and didn't go to Mrs Field's.. cos I had got a bag of freddo frogs from Big W instead... yummy.. I haven't cracked them open as yet.. only because my tummy hurts..

feeling better .. had snacks

I was all blah! before.. I was feeling rotten.. but I had some things to eat and I am now snacking on nerds.. yummy little candy things.. and now I am starting to get a tummy ache.. but at least I am on a happy path..

I have been having strange emotions lately.. sometimes I feel all nervous and anxious and guilty.. for no reason at all.. and then other times I feel all cranky and sad and unmotivated and then other times I am all happy and jolly .. oohh and there is the sleepy times.. I don't think that has to do with the others though..

getting cranky..

My uncle just called to say that my dad told him that he wants to move and we need to organise it.. On Saturday when I was there, I asked if he was fine how it was and what he wanted to do? did he want to move? he said no.. he didn't want to go anywhere cos they were looking after him and he couldn't go anywhere else.. I am starting to get annoyed.. I ask him all the time what he wants and he says he's happy.. then he changes his mind.. I just don't understand it.. if he told me what he wanted I would get it done.. but he just says.. nah nah I don't need anything..

Elissa the demolisher

Yesterday Elissa spent the day tearing out her laundry.. she is getting ducted heating soon and needed to make a spot for the service vent thingy.. anyway one thign lead to another, and now the laundry, the spare shower and toilet have all been removed and ther is a nice big empty hole that needs to be plastered up and have the trough and things put back in.. I haven't seen it but i bet it looks delightful.

shopping

I went shopping yesterday at lunch time.. I am thinking about going again.. not too sure.. because I don't want to get to tired.. and I also don't want to spend to much moeny.. I hav been thinking about lincraft.. oohh i would like to purchase soem wool.. but I think I need to finish off the project I am currently working on.. otherwise i will end up with a bundle of things I don;t use.. like the suitcase of fabric I have.. perhaps I will just read on the inernet .. yes.. that sounds like a much better idea..

the lan is gone

well is not gone anywhere.. its broke.. so I can't get to any documents, or code or anythign! hhmm.. so I am now writing on the blog.. and eating cheese.. I do love cheese.. oohh and drinking ribena.. yummy..

I got up early this morning we had to pick up my dad and take him to the hospital.. he has an appointment this morning.. My uncle is meeting him there to watch over him and possibly take him home.. hopefully he will hear some news about what they plan to do with him.. ie more treatment or evaluations.. I am guessing he is going to be very tired today.. they are going to prod all the sore bits and probably give him a bundle of tests.. I guess we will find out later today..

knitting tonight

As I was preparing to leave for knitting I was checknig what Ihad in my bags.. I wanted to take out any unnesecarry heavy items.. well.. I found a milky way!!! yummy.. I just ate it all and it was delicious..

maternity pants

I purchased a couple pairs of pants the other day.. they are strange.. i am used to wearing hipster pants.. and so these are just freaky.. they go up to past your belly button.. maybe there is room to grow.. but I am finding it weird.. they are kind of shorter at the back.. obviously I am supposed to fill out the front section with a giant belly and then they will be normal.. not sure how long that will take.. I guess the little bubs is just going to keep growing and growing.. ooh.. makes me a little nervous just thinking about it..

been busy today

There is lots of work on at the moment.. and there are priorities.. oohh.. I have instructions on which items are the most important.. it's kind of exciting.. and kind of scary at the same time.. we have a deadline, that will most definately stay... so there is loads of work coming up.. oohh dear.. and it is all planned to be completed before I go on maternity leave.. I am not sure if I want to be around when there is lots of stress about releases.. oohh well.. the best bit I worked out is taht I won't have time to take any annual leave.. as they won't be letting us go.. so I should go to maternity leave with almost 3 weeks leave.. hoorah! that basically means more time off with pay.. I don't think I will be able to take it at half pay though..

naughty foods for lunch

I had half a bucket of hot chips
a vegemite sandwich - white bread
a chocolate iced donut
and a nice vitamin pill.. that should about cover it..

oohh and a few cups of water..

its raining its pouring

so much rain and wind and coldness.. currently in melbourne its 14.8 degrees.. actually I was expecting it to be colder.. especially with all the nasty rain and wind that I can see out the window.. I was wanting to go on a journey to some nice shops.. I might have to put that off till tomorrow.. bummer.. also I haven't had lunch yet.. I had better hurry up.. I might get delirious with hunger soon..

broom broom

Big excitement this week..
Simon is off to be a co driver in the Rally of Canberra .. hhmm I am not that knowledgable of rallying and how it all works, but the boys are mega excited about it all..

Simon and Ben have got a nice Subaru all set for the big day.. check it out

as far as I can tell Ben drives really fast and Simon yells things out like "go left" or something along those lines.. I bet I got it all wrong.. dosen't matter.. as long as they have a great time and stay safe... ohh and come in first place would be nice too..

GO GO GO BENNI RACING!!

people wanting to die

Today on the way to work we were stopped in traffic and there was a women in a car next to us with 3 kids.. There were 2 in the back and 1 in the front.. The 2 kids in the back didn't have seat belts on .. I couldn't believe it.. and it wasn't like they had been cheeky and taken them off or somthign because the mother was turing around in her seat to talk to them .. they were sitting up and leaning into the front and all kinds of things.. the kid in the front had a seat belt on.. lucky him.. in an accident his brothers are going to land on his head anyway.. I just can't get over the stupidity of some people.. we have that many campaigns about safe driving, wearing seatbelts is often the priority (I must admit that at the moment speeding is the big thing) but in the last few years there have been heaps of telveision ads about wearing seat belts not to mention roadside signs .. and the these ads are usually pretty gruesome.. you know bodies flying through the air and such.. i guess the things that amazes me the most is that its not like a hard or difficult task.. for most people putting your seat belt on as soon as you get into a car is instinct.. and for such little effort you get such big rewards.. even being in a little bingle or stopping suddenly could have such big consequences..

I am pretty big into car safety.. when I was in high school one of my mums friends daughters was in a car boot when the car sturck a tree.. she is a quadraplegic now.. she was lucky, other passengers were killed and seriously injured too.. they went through hell with that accident.. it changed their entire life.. she had to recover from the accident, come to terms with her new life and then rebuild her life.. I think she was 19.. she had been at uni.. none of that anymore.. she had to learn new life skills.. it took years before she was able to do tasks we take for granted.. I haven't seen them in quite a while now.. but she did start to get her life back on track eventually.. makes you think.. one silly mistake could have huge ramifications..

in my pyjamas..

Phil is doing some dishes.. mostly tupperware.. yesterday I went rummaging though the tupperware room re organising.. cos it will have to get cleaned out soon so that we can re decorate for the baby.. so i managed to drop 2 boxes of tupperware by taking a few things out and re organising.. I am not too sure what exactly I am going to do with everything but i do have heaps of it.. i guess wveryone is getting tupperware for presents from now on.. the other stuff int he room is like arts and crafts things.. there is tiling stuff from my mosaic phase and paints and glitter and paper and glue and wool and thread and entire suitcase of fabic.. oohh then there is the pile of hats, the sewing machine the bookcase full of books, the pile of pre bought presents and a washing basket full of Phil's shoes.. hhmm then there is a cheast of drawers full of tupperware accessories.. ie paperwork, gadgets, packing bags, recipes etc.. oohh and a full size dining table and some other boxes of stuff.. gee whizz I had better get cracking on cleaning it all out.. we might have to takes soem large furniture itemsover to my dads place.. so the plan is to clean out that room.. paint it all nice and get in the curtains.. then perhaps we can move in temporarily while we paint our room and then move everyone back to their rightful places.. I had better get cracking.. hhmm I might need a shower first.. and I did tell Elissa I would play with her today.. we migth go shopping... hhmm better give her a call..