dr last night

we went to the dr's yesterday afternoon.. we had to wait a while.. but I had my knitting.. he also ran off to do a delivery while we were there, but he only went to the hospital next door.. and he was back in like 20 mins or so.. I guess I have to do all the hard work at the start on my own and he just gets to show up right at the end..

anyway my blood pressure is fine, as is the baby's heart beat.. but the best bit was that he said.. the baby is not too big and not too small.. thats the kind of things I want to hear..

I also have to schedule myslef in for a diabetes test next week.. I have to fast for 6 hours and it will take 2.5 - 3 hours.. hhmm that dosen't sound like fun.. he said to bring a book along.. I might do some investigations to find out what the test involves.. also we now haev to visit the dr every 2 weeks instead of every 4.. golly.. it must be getting near the end..

anyway off to visit my dad..

dr visit today.

today we are off to visit the baby dr again.. he said last time that I would be getting a blood test today.. so I will be drinking lots and lots of water before I go.. I dont think there is anything I need to ask..

also when I made the appointment it was a double booked time.. so i am guessing that we will be waiting a while.. especailly as our appt. is at 4 pm..
ahh well.. wait and see.. i have my knitting to take along and phil is going to make a shopping list.. we need many things from the supermarket..

dr visit today.

today we are off to visit the baby dr again.. he said last time that I would be getting a blood test today.. so I will be drinking lots and lots of water before I go.. I dont think there is anything I need to ask..

also when I made the appointment it was a double booked time.. so i am guessing that we will be waiting a while.. especailly as our appt. is at 4 pm..
ahh well.. wait and see.. i have my knitting to take along and phil is going to make a shopping list.. we need many things from the supermarket..

all tired now

I went over to the hospital at lunch to visit my dad.. he was a bit sad today .. well more shocked as his neighbour or 35 years popped in to visit today and it turns out he is going blind.. he is not allowed to drive and can't read anymore.. my dad was very upset about it.. everyone is getting older, their bodies aren't coping as well as they used to.. I guess its not somethign you can expect but it makes life harder..

anyway I am all tired now.. I just sat down at my pinkuter and went "sigh".. i think i must need some ice cream to perk me up a bit..

I was going to stop off on the way back but it was rainy and I didnt have my brolly.. so now my jacket and hat are all soggy.. just as well i had them on or I would be all soggy..

as I look out the window now I can see blue sky and white fluffy clouds.. just what i saw when I left to go to the hospital and thought "no rain coming, won't be needing the brolly."

ice cream

I have purchased an ice cream for later.. it is in the freezer waiting for me..

oohh I did also have an ice cream just before.. it was quite yummy..

There is a new IGA supermarket opened up across the road from my building.. hoorah! there is ice creams.. they also have liquor.. but I won't be needing any for a while..

when I used to work here about 2 years ago if I wanted an ice cream I had to go into some scary newsagent that had an x rated book shop inside.. they had a small freezer with abut 5 differnet kinds of ice cream.. now there is a 7-11 o nthe opposite corner, a new zealand ice creamery down a block and a half and now the iga.. oohh I can have ice cream when ever I want.

Oohh my belly..

There is something inside my belly kicking me.. kicking me.. oohh.. it is very distracting.. I does not hurt but is startling and somewhat uncomfortable.. sometimes I have to move around so that it is stops being annoying..

some people tell me that they loved the feeling of the baby kicking.. well.. I think they might be slightly mental.. apart from the fact that it means there is still a nice little being growing inside.. which can be a worry when there is no moevment felt.. its just going to get worse.. the baby will get bigger and the space will get smaller and my poor little organs are going to cop a beating..

Congratulations to Elissa and Mick

They have finally decided to tie the knot.. how exciting.. They popped in last night to tell us the news.. apparently people have been saying "its about time!"

heheheee.. Jan is apparently mega excited.. she gave Elissa a deadline on what she wants the engagement cake to say!

so that means shopping!!! hhmm what do you think I should get them.. they have just about everything.. oohh golly may be somethign really fabulous like towels! oohh I love towels.. or a ride on mower.. hhmm I probably can't afford one of those.. oohh this will need some consideration..

entry number 500

hhmm I had better make this a good one..

I have many things to talk about.. Rach's new puppy Tobie who ate some rug and had to go to the vet for medicine so that his tummy won't hurt..

Phil and I also went to the movies on saturday night with some friends.. amazing we haven't been out for months.. months I tell you.. we got home about 9.45pm and I went straight to bed... I was very tired..

I had terrible sleep last night.. not sure if I was keeping Phil awake or he was keeping me awake.. I am having troubles sleeping.. I wake up and get kicked by the baby and go back to sleep after a while..

Phil was all sore because he has been working in the yard yesterday.. there was a section of our fence missing as we re located the gate and it hadn't all been put back together.. so now the fence looks very spiffy.. the boys are planning on doing some more garden work soon..

The Tasmania part of the rally is on this weekend.. Sabine is heading off on Wednesady with Simon.. Hilton is taking the boat Thursday.. I hope they are all set.. sabine has been knitting beanies and she even got Gertrude to make some polar fleece hats.. hopefully they won't be too cold.. good lucks boys..

new baby

Petar and Jacqie, Sabines cousins have a brand new daughter.. she was born on Friday afternoon.. named Hannah.. Sabine and I went to visit yesterday afternoon.. and golly I am getting nervous now.. Hannah is pretty big, but she is so small.. and she has these tiny little hands and feet... and she was sleeping so quietly until she needed to be woken for a nappy change and a feed.. oohh my gods.. there was crying.. it sounded like screaming.. but Sabine reasures me that was just crying.. oohh dear..

Other than me being a bit scared, she is just gorgeous.. which I am quite surprised about.. because often babies (newborns) are all horrible looking.. not Hannah, no, she is soft and cute and looks really healthy.. Petar and Jacquie are so excited.. like mega hyper.. They should be happy too, they have a beautiful healthy baby girl..

big weekend

There was lots of activity over the weekend.. like cleaning and washing and vacuuming and organising and folding and ironing and fence mending.. okay I didn't get involved in all those activites.. but I did do a fair amount..

I also had to look for a wedding outfit.. we are off to a wedding in 2 weeks.. and well I need to find soemthign spiffy to wear.. only problem was that all the maternity shops were shut on sunday.. how rude? .. I don;t know when they expect people to go there.. most of them are only open half days saturday too... oohh well.. i might have to go after work on friday.. some are open to 7.. oohh.. I usually get home about then..

happier

when we visited my dad last night he was much happier.. he had been up and gone on a walk! amazing.. i was very impressed.. he was quite excited.. I guess sitting around all day in bed would be very boring.. especially when you can't be bothered reading or doing small tasks.. so a walk is a big achievement.. the physio guy is giong to come past at other times and he can do more walks..

on a side note apparently it was a bad night as one other person in the room passed away .. makes it hard to be there when people are dying all the time..

feeling blah!

i am all blah.. I am a bit tired and achey.. my belly gets sore all the time.. especially when I eat too much.. last night I ate too much lasagne at knitting and then i couldn't laugh because it was so painful.. i guess when you have loads of extra stuff hanging about inside somethign needs to stretch and make room.

also phil and I visited my Dad at lunch time and he seemed a bit sad.. when we were leaving he kept saying its good to see familiar faces.. It makes me sad.. I think the man next to him must have passed away over night.. there is a new person in his spot and his flowers are now out in the entry foyer.. poor old george.. most of the people that come in are italian or greek.. there is always mutterings of conversations that just pass over your head.. some of the nurses can speak whatever language it is.. i guess they like to keep the blokes and ladies seperate also.. never really thought about it before.. but all the people dad shares with are blokes..

he mentioned getting up and about and doing stuff today.. the nurse said that they would get the physio to check him out and see what he is capable and what things he can do.. he will still need helpers as his legs are pretty weak.. i guess not doing much exercise for 6 months will do that to you.. hopefully we can take him on an outing.. the only trouble is that the weather is so cold.. he wouldn't go outside for fearing of getting more sick..

time to leave work

I think I am going to get cranky.. things are in a mess and I have no enthuasism to fix them.. i think i might have to eat some worms.. why oh why don't people do the right thing..

been knitting up a storm

I am presently sittinga t my desk wearing the mushroom hat that I knitted over the last few days.. I finished it on sunday and am very pleased.. I started it on wednesday at knitting under advice from princess Carolyn.. and completed it on sunday afternoon while visiting my dad at hospital.. I also started another one on sunday evening which I have almost finished.. I have done all the kntiting part but need to do the sewing up part.. I didn't have a needle with a big enough eye for wool to fit through.. so not sure what I will be donig tonight at knitting.. hhmm I might have to start putting up some pictures of all my wonderful works of art..

dr meeting

Thomas, Phil and I went along to the hospital this morning to meet with Dad's Dr.. They were running late and very apologetic about not running on time.. which was good.. I really wasn't expecting them to be on time.. but obviously they were..

basically they wanted to chat to us to ensure we understood the severity of dad's illness.. they are not able to give timelines on things but explained that there are a variety of things going on, and that even though he seems to be more alert since he came into the hospital, his health has not improved...

the type of cancer he has is slow moving, however because of the place in which it is positioned (base of neck) it is likely to spread into the brain.. (he complained of seeing double this morning and that is a sign that it might be close to the brain) they are going to monitor his condition and do what they can to keep him happy and pain free..

he has been quite sad last night and today.. I think he has realised that he is not going to be getting better and going home..

I am not sure what we need to do for him..

crazy people

some people are just crazy.. in the last few days I have seen some silly things...

last night on the way home while in slow moving traffic I looked out the window to see in the car next to me, the driver brushing his teeth.. I was a little concerned about this.. i checked again to make sure I wasn't imagining things.. but no he was still brushing his teeth..

today I there were all these people crossing against the red man and trying to get run over by cars.. as in they just walked out in front of oncoming traffic..

just before that some people a man holfing a toddler and a women holding a small baby (and I mean small it was less that 2 months old) ran out in the traffic to get to the tram.. which had just pulling up at the tram stop .. the stupid bit was they had just run across from the red man on the traffic the other way.. which means the second lights were about to change to red.. so the tram was trapped at the lights by the time it stopped and they could have safely crossed to the tram.. amazing.. I don't think I will be running anywhere near traffic with my new born in my arms.. just call me crazy..

lollies

I just spent $27 at 7-11 on lollies.. yummy.. I was purchasing for other people too.. but that is still a lot of lollies.. also there was no ice cream.. the freezer was broken.. very upsetting..

Exhausted today

I am feeling very lethargic today.. I have just eaten some vegemite toast and had a drink of apple blackcurrant juice.. hopefully that will put some spark back into me.. I was actually feeling a bit nauseas before.. not good..

I am worried and stressed about how my dad is going and what we need to do with him and all that jazz... he was all upset last night because someone came and told him that he had to pay back the money that we borrowed.. he was getting pretty mad abut it.. its really difficult .. he gets these bizzare hallucinations and you can;t reassure him that there is nothing wrong.. it is rather upsetting.. especially when he dosen't believe what you are telling him..

anyway hopefully the less medication is helping.. I will visit again at lunch and see how he is..

oohh I nearly forgot to mention about the fabulous flowers that came for me yesterday.. they are just divine and smell so yummy.. there is gerbera's, oriental lillium's, orchids, little berry things and somethign else I can;t remember.. but it is beautiful.. thanks so very much to katia and sylvain.. just inhaling the wonderful perfume makes you feel better..

I have 46 work days left..

amazing.. that is not too many.. I will have to count them all down.. hoorah!
I have 10 real weeks left.. but when I only count the work days it seems much sooner.. oohh golly..

I think I might try to take a long weekend in there as well.. I need to use up my additional day.. we get one additiona days leave a year.. we can take it whenever we like but you only get it once a year and it dosen't accrue.. we used to get New years eve off, but they figured out that we couldn;t run business properly when everyone is off, so now its any day.. I normally take it for my birthday.. but I won't have to be at work then..

the sun is gone

oohh no.. before they could see it the sun has now gone behind a building near by.. bummer ..

crazy boys at work

they are all gathered around edwards desk..a she has the sun and are tryign ways to see venus crossing the sun.. they have pieces of paper and bits of black platic with a hole poked in it and have shut the curtains and have sticky taped open one blind to see .. much excitement.. they really should have planned ahead..

I haven't blogged for a week

there has been much going on ..

after visiting my dad last week I decided that he needed more visits so I had wednesday off to check up on him.. He was then moved to the hospital thursday and so I wasn't in at work then either..

Friday was a bit of a stress as I was catching up on work and visiting dad..

Friday night thomas called form the hospital to say the Dr thought I should come in .. we had a chat to him and they were concerned that he might not improve.. he was in a sleep they were having troubles waking him..

we got a full explanation about the calcium levels in his blood and the effects that can have on the body (worst effect is to put you in a coma) .. so dad was put on some medication to bring the calcium levels down and then some fluids to help flush it out also. anyway over the weekend he improved greatly.. and is awake often and alert and eating heaps more than I have seen him eat in ages.. not only that but he is able to feed himself.. and is even eating real solid food, not just soup and juices...

he had been getting anxious often when I saw him and was concerned that people were out to hurt or get him.. so i spoke with the dr yesterday and today he mentioned that they have reduced his medication.. which seemed to have had an effect on him today.. he seemed more relaxed, coherant and himself.. I am pleased about that...

apparently I am always trying to make him eat things.. I ususally show up about meal times.. and want him to eat stuff.. he said yesterday that I am worse than Eve... now thats a real challenge.. she was always trying to feed us.. how annoying..

I also got he dr today to look at a sore bit on dads arm.. he had a chat to phil and I about it.. he thinks it is a skin cancer.. and it going to have to chat to his boss (he is an intern) about it.. options will be to leave it or remove it.. we will have to wait and see what they think is the best move and see how dad feels about it.. the dr didn't mention to dad that he thought it was cancer.. probably needs to make some options available.. hhmm.. ther is much to think about.. because if they remove it, there will be a wound and pain and healing time.. and also it might not be a primary cancer, which means more are just going to grow and removing one won't actually affect anything.. so we will wait and see..

but the place that dad is in is fabulous.. there are heaps of nurses and people to look after him.. they are all really nice and keen and caring .. they are also responsive to the patients needs.. much better than some places.. there is also a fridge to put dads yogurt in, plus ice cream if he ever wants any..

snacks

do I need snacks?

I had left overs for lunch today.. it was yummy.. Sabine came over last night and cooked dinner at our place.. we had pasta and meatballs..

it made me very full.. I get full quick, but then get hungry again later on.. its a bit confusing.. so I really have no idea what I am doing.. my shoulder blade is sore.. silly shoulder.. I also think I need a nap... well this is just going nowhere..

Wendy has returned.

She has been on long service leave for like 6 months.. she went to fun and exciting places like Ireland, Italy and Canada.. I would have troubles getting out of bed to come to work.. I guess the first few days you don't have to do too many exciting things anyway.. delete thousands of email messages.. read the important ones.. get many passwords reset .. listen to message bank messages, or delete, delete, delete..

also catching up on the latest work.. there is lots of work on the go at the moment.. I would have troubles getting right back into the swing of things..
I guess this is what I have to look forward to when returning from maternity leave.. and that will be like a year.. golly.. I might have to come back part time.. i wouldn't want to freak out of anythings..

news from the Dr

we had out meeting last night with the Dr.. everyone was there, my brother Thomas, my aunt, 2 uncles, Sabine and Phil. My dad was looking very tired.. So basically it was the same Dr that Thomas and I saw last week, but this time he had been investigating and had somethign useful to tell us..

the radio treatment that my dad had recieved was not intended to be curative.. it was only to relieve the pressure from the cancer that had inhabited the muscles.. There is no plan to treat the cancer as it will not be effective... The plan is to treat the symptons that arise, which will include monitorig the pain and increasing medication as needed.. He will need to move to a facility that has more care. My aunt and the Dr are looking for a vacancy at a Pallative care hospices today, in the idea to move him asap.

It was not the news I was totally expecting but looking at the condition of my dad can see that he needs to all the help he can.